So, I'm learning a few things about myself. But the most important one would be that I apparently have like NO self control. I mean, I have a lil...but it ain't much.
So, as you all know...or some of you know...I had a stroke back in November 2011. So, I left the hospital with this whole *Its Time For Change!!* attitude. Man..lifestyle change was in FULL effect. For about a week.
I mean, I'm saying...I TRIED!!! I downloaded an app that allowed me to enter my height, weight (okay...so I wasn't COMPLETELY honest in that entry), age, etc and it would give me a daily calorie goal and track all of my food intake, exercise, etc. And for a week...man I was ON IT. I learned quickly that I undereat for the most part, and its been hindering me. I need to be eating 5 small meals instead of eating this big breakfast and then not eating the rest of the day. But I just have no appetite for food the rest of the day. I'm gonna work on it though.
Soooooo...then I said as a Muslim, I am going to start praying more often and making sure to stay away from ALL pork, because I haven't been doing very well in either. Ummm....so yeah....I'm sorta still working on that whole piece.
Which leads me to this whole bbq craze I've been on recently. Have no idea why, but I've been craving bbq sandwiches. I'll stop by Big T's on the way home from work and buy myself a little sandwich for dinner. Butttttttttttttttt...I have a secret confession to make. One of my coworkers went out for lunch and brought me back a bbq sandwich from.....*hanging head* Maurices. And I ate it *hanging head further* And it was good *drops head to the floor*. Now...for those outside of SC who are unaware; "OUR" community doesn't eat at Maurices. We are not exactly welcome there...so as an entire community...we stay away. Yeah...I know...I have disgraced the entire community. But dammit...that cue was callin me man!!!! I'm gon' do better though. I promise. No....seriously...I will. I'm sorry!!!!!!!!!!
Then I said I was gonna stay celibate. No.....seriously, lol. I will. Soon. Not REAL soon. But soon
Oh...and I joined a gym! And I go. Sometimes. I even work out and have fun doing it. Until I get distracted and then I start staring at the machines and head back home. And eat. I'm sorry...working out makes me hungry!!
And I swore I was gonna diet...and then Aaron gifted me with like a 10 lb bag of Jelly Belly Jelly Beans :| And I did still diet. But I also ate those damn Jelly Belly's. Just in smaller handfuls. It took me a minute to finish the bag too. Way longer than the day it would have taken me in the past.
*oooooh...had to stop typing for a minute...my brother J made me breakfast in bed...mmmhmmmm...Now I'm back*
So anyway... yeah, about that whole self control thing. Ughhhh....I'll continue once I feel less full.
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as I sit here eating my barbecue ribs. I must say that I admire you nonetheless. The world was not created in one day so it takes time. It's a journey and you have at least taken some steps.
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